TUesday and we try again...

You are here.  I am here.

So far, no real progress on healing.  Will think about what is next!

Here is the latest podcast where we talk about what is frustrating and why... as that has been my life the last few days!

I missed you the last few days!

Hello friend

I missed you these last few days trying to heal!  But I am here in words and stayed with you in my thoughts.

Funny, what I missed most is this - the part where I write to you from my heart.  It feels like the most authentic thing I am doing right now during my day.

There are two parts to this life, the part where we try and figure out what is real and the other part when we seek to find what it is we want to be real.

So much of 'this life' I fear is living in a way that doesn't feel real, but that happens because we fear or have lost the ability to be real.

And how sad this makes me.

And how much I want to not be one more person faking it as I go along in this world.

Which brings me back to you, here, now.

And where you stand on all this?  Does your life feel like it is real all the time or in a constant search for what is?

I thought more about this because I don't want to write to you and then have us both stand still and stuck in the pain and suffering and crisis.

I know that is all real in the moment.  But it is a moment that will pass if you let it.

What I love about the real and the seeking for it is the knowing I was able to move thru and past the pain, suffering, and crisis.

That who I am after I like so much more than before.

And the hard part is how much less I have in common with the fake, real world.

And so that is part of what I want to bring here to both of us in this place.

A break from the fake and a time out in the real.

I love what is real.  I just think we all define it in ways that are different.  And for me, words aren't enough - it is a feeling that knows.

So that is what I wish I could give to you today.

I hope you have already found it on your own.

And until tomorrow I will say
see you in 24,
Jill

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